Morning light

,,It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life
for me
And I’m feeling good”

sunlight

Monday morning. Slowly waking up, after not sleeping much this night. One positive thing- light. I am so tired of waking up into a foggy a rainy days (I should get used to by now, but still trying to resist). Yes, waking up from some dream you had and damn, wanted it to continue, that can mess up your mood a little bit. But waking up into a sunny morning gives you the right energy to survive it, the right energy for the day,you suddenly don’t feel that tired or moody. When I first went out with my dog, it felt amazing and didn’t feel that blind and half sleeping (believe me it happens all the time). Even if the sun is not that warm these days, yea winter is coming -_- , I am trying to enjoy the last sunny weather as much as I can 🙂 . Anyway, have a nice and sunny day everybody!

N.

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What is your perspective?

“It is a narrow mind which cannot look at a subject from various points of view.”

  perspective 1  perspective 2

Here’s the thing. When you bring 50 different people, let them stand abreast and tell them one thing, which they are supposed to think about, they will tell you 50 different opinions about it.
My point?
We are all individuals and we are allowed to have our own opinion on anything. We are allowed to think free, to see things from another perspective or from our own angle . If one person thinks from below, another person can speculate about things from above, from right,from left, from freaking every single side that exist. Don’t ever let anybody to think for you, do your own decisions because you are here for you not for anybody else.
The one important thing is- be yourself, because being yourself doesn’t mean being weird, it means being unique. You know that nobody’s ever gonna be who you are and do the same things the same way you did. Even if it’s the most bizarre thing ever, you know that it’s your special thing, which you are passionate about. Let it be that way and be happy about it, because not everybody has the opportunity of doing something what he/she love. Be you.

N.

P.s: Two different perspectives? Or no?

Take chances and take a lot of them

,,In the very very end we only regret the chances we didn’t take.”

roots

Today I was thinking about all chances in life. Chance for job, school, to stand up for yourself maybe  …chances to even talk to somebody without feeling your knees shaking like crazy. People are so scared in general, of taking chances because they are terrified of loosing something what is important and sometimes even precious for them. That’s why they are not taking chances and staying on the one same place, with their roots very deep, inside of the ground. Change is good from time to time. Take chances (wisely) when you have a opportunity.

,,What if something fails?” Typical question. Wanna answer? It’s a big part of LIFE- life with ups and downs, life with good/messed up things…sometimes you even have to kneel because you are down, but there are still so many beautiful things in life and you know it very well. But still, if you think it’s worth of your time,it has some point and ofc progress (because you know it’s gonna have some impact on your life too) you totally take the chance, whatever it is. Don’t ever do anything you don’t want to do and last but not least try not to expect that much (in general) because when you do, you mostly end up disappointed. And I know that you don’t really want to. You are the one who’s gonna deal with your actions. Hope you’ll take the right ones.

N.

P.s: I was walking down the street and saw this old tree which stands there like probably my whole life, this is reflecting the roots, not taking chance if you have one because you are scared..change it and you will see that you’ll feel much better!

It’s OK.

,,Sometimes we deliberately step into those traps…”
,,I was born in mine, I don’t mind it anymore.”
,,Oh but you should…you should mind it!”
,,I do, but I say I don’t.”

window

,,Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people?” This is my question of the day. I was sitting in my morning class today and every single of my classmates had some partner (in crime) sitting next to them…only I was alone at my table. So yea, sometimes I get lonely, but doesn’t everybody? I was staring through the window, waiting till I can leave the class because suddenly it felt kinda uncomfortable. I do have people I can consider as friends, but the shame is, that they are either studying somewhere else or living too far away. Every day, I am assuring myself, that it’s just a temporary thing and if something like that is happening to you, don’t worry, it’s gonna be okay at the end, and if it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.

N.

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are

,,It don’t always make sense. Especially from the outside.”


I really didn’t wanted to talk about relationships, love and emotions, but I think I just got into a point, where I can. It all obviously started with your first “love experience”. We have so many beliefs, expectations, naive glasses on our eyes throughout the whole relationship… and when it suddenly ends, it’s always up to people, how are they gonna respond/deal with it. Some people deal so quick and naturally with break ups, like moving was an everyday thing. But some of them are stuck in the circle of madness for so long. We are going through so many phases through the whole period, it’s individual.

But anyway, I didn’t really wanna talk about break ups…in this point it’ useless and also too depressing and that’s not something I wanna analyze. After some “experiences” I realized, that I don’t really wanna be treated the way I was in past, because being here for somebody means being here for somebody for real and give them your attention as much as you can, thoughts, ideas, sometimes just a few words are something that is supposed to be there.
People are able to change for other people, but only if they really want. If not, you can even stand on your head or whatever and nothing’s gonna change, nothing’s progressive ‘s gonna happen. People are able to change, only if they are brave enough, resolute and last but not least, if they are not scared of it. You can’t even know how much it means to a person (who doesn’t really want that much) if you say to him/her a few nice and warming words.

In my opinion, people are expecting too much nowadays, noting’s enough for them.They want more and more every single day and then they are surprised when the other part leaves.
Equality is important. Nothing’s better than  healthy respect between two people. Jealousy is also a waste of  of your time when you believe in actions of your partner. I know it sounds like a “perfect thing” right? No problems, fight. But actually there are, because that’s a part of life and you can’t really omit it. Kinda rare these days, to have a normal relationship, am I right?
Women tend to pick the guys, who are a total opposite of their “dreamy kind”, or just because he offered himself and they just wanted to do that. Period. Yes, you know that this is really happening. There are also my favourite sentence? ,, We accept the love we think we deserve.”

I don’t know, but after those negative experiences I’ve been through , I am just done trying. OK, not trying in general, but trying so hard. I decided to wait and rest a little, because you can’t even imagine how tired I am from all the drama and stress ( in combination with my major at university it’s asking for one gun and one bullet in it). So I’ll just wait, because I have nothing to worry about and hurry up.
When I am walking down the streets, anywhere, and I see all the couples, being happy together, I always catch myself not being jealous anymore, but yes that’s a big part of growing up, I guess. I am not ready at this particular second, but who knows….doors are not closed entirely. But now, I am here for me. That was just my point of view, there are 100 people with 100 different ways how to explain this, I know.

So, in conclusion, if you feel that you are able to change for a good thing and you really are concerned about it, do it with no regrets, because you are doing it partly for yourself, partly for him/her, with hope that the person deserves it.

Good luck 🙂

bubble 

N.

P.s: Bubble in the picture? Relationships are that vulnerable…like the little bubble. Trying to keep it alive, as long as we can.

Fly away with me

“The more real you get the more unreal the world gets. ”

balloons

,,Sometimes, I just want to leave and never come back.”  Like those balloons in the photo, needing to fly away with them. You all had this in your head at least like 10 times in your whole life. I can say that it’s my dream to finish university and just leave…of course I wanna come back, but not that soon. Just to rest from this state, relax, feel the free will of mine,not having to explain things all over again. Let’s face it- reality. It’s kinda hard to live your life when you have expectations from every single side. School, grades, parents, work, home, friends…they all expect you to do something, say something, be someone. I wanna be someone who I wanna be someone, who is not pretending anything, who is the way she is.

Point of view for today? Balloons. Figure it out.

N.

Say something

“…it only takes one voice, at the right pitch, to start an avalanche.”

night light

Even if today was kind of a better day in some ways, I decided to talk about something what is not that positive in general- being afraid to speak up.There are lot of people in this world who – when it comes to that – never say a word when something’s happening, either in their life or if they have to speak up for some other person. Okay, being afraid is perfectly normal, being scared that at the end you will come out as the worst one, okay- everything’s okay, but (!) if not, then you will help yourself, or the satisfaction from helping the others is worth of it all. Yes, sometimes, it can be hard to distinguish yes or no, but if you feel that it’s right, then it’s right. Words are here for communication, so say something before it’s too late.

N. night light 2

P.s: Why those photos? Yes, say something before the light goes off.