,,Half white, half black. Which side you will take?”
While listening to one song I basically got a new idea for a article. Does that happen to you too? You are listening to something and suddenly you are like, hmm I should write about that, or, hmm yea this a really good quote/idea, whatever. Yes, maybe that happens a lot, because nowadays musicians are filling their songs with thoughts which are from, I would say- “everyday mind”. Explanation in need? We are all going through those things which are expressed in that music…if not 100% then somehow else.
So, now it’s Friday.
My free day.
Am I supposed to do something other than write?
I guess not.
And if yes, I’ll do it later.
This is important now.
Where have I been? Oh yes, back to the previous, the line from the song is like this:
,,Cause space is just a word made up by someone who’s afraid to get too…close.”
And if you think about that at least for a second, you’d know that it says the truth. It feels so painful when somebody gets that hurt, that then the person doesn’t really want to allow anybody to step into their world. Generally, when someone gets hurt it feels like a freakishly well thought betrayal, something unbelievable.
The person is strongly assuring himself/herself that he/she will never let that happen again. But since we are the sociable species, we can’t really avoid everybody. After some time, after we get some “rest”, we will get up and go out and talk to people. Of course it is very individual, I mean, the recovery time is individual. It can be one month, two months or, idk, half of the year. But still, it will happen eventually.
It is like it is, hurt mind is very strongly persisting against other minds trying to get in. When the other mind is too “hush hush”, the hurt one gets scared. Yes, that happens all the time.
People invented “space” word to get away from the responsibilities, to run away from hurt, to runaway from everything that happened because they don’t want to look through their fingers anymore longer.
Pushing people away is not always a good idea. When you push them away, yes, that’s shitty, because you just do it during your 5 minute “amok” and later you’ll regret it af. Don’t push good ones away, they really don’t deserve it. Keep that on mind.
Being afraid is normal, as I said like, I don’t know, at least 20 times here. Being afraid is something ordinary, happening everyday, you just don’t want to get hurt again. I think that sometimes, you need to sacrifice a piece of yourself to find “the happy place”. If you want to end up in a good place, you need to offer something but don’t expect it back, because when you do, there is a possibility that you’ll end up disappointed.
Maybe,after some time…just give it a try again.