Hemingway knew about it long before we did

The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure that it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry.

Ernest Hemingway 

Everyone must have experienced this at least once in their lives. Don’t try to tell me the opposite, but look into the mirror, watch the dark circles under your eyes getting even darker and then tell me that I am a liar.

We all have been broken by something or somebody. That stuff happens. Most of the people will learn their lesson and become stronger after this unpleasant happening. The most important thing is the approach they will create or the inner statement they will believe in.
It is said, that if it is not going to break you, it will kill you.

How come?

Because you have to let the pain break you, that’s the only way you are going to get over it and let the time heal you properly. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right?
If you will suppress the pain and the agony inside of you, you will soon explode and there is a strong possibility that it will kill you for good. Not for real, but kill any attempt to be normal again. By normal I mean, to  integrate and socialize again. Like you used to…you still remember that, do you?

If you just decide to not to do anything with the reality of “underground” you will just survive day by day, you will not live. You will just count down the days till you simply stop and your body will turn off. That’s why the “no special hurry” like it is said, it is going to kill you slowly, day by day, from worse to the worst.

We all know who is the only one able to stop it.

N.

P.s: I do think he was right.Instagram

“At the end, the only thing you see, is sky intersected with a lightning.”

There are days, when I don’t feel like I am a neat person. Most of the times that happens during the days when I don’t even feel like crawling out of the bed. I surely am not a Sunday morning person ( maybe also with the emphasis on today, because while I am writing these words, I am at work) and surely not s Friday sunset person either.

Why?

Because, I don’t know if you can imagine, the feeling when you know, the weekend is near, weekend maybe full of adventures or just a regular bed- like one, you just feel the relief after a long week full of stereotype, the sunset washes away all the problems and you simply wanna go on a little bit more- well, why not?

I do sometimes feel like Wednesday 1. am tho, while listening to drunk people chattering below my bedroom window, I feel like a broken mind lock on March. Listening all the time to my bones, slightly cracking, every time I turn on the other back, at least for fifty times that night and all the other nights too. I fall down from the bed in full elegance with a muffled smack and still finding excuses for my awkward sadness.

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Sometimes, I have to leave my house without nobody noticing me, completely alone, wandering around town on my roller skates, trying to avoid people, just because I have a feeling, that I don’t belong there. I tend to think I belong to all the made up day, that didn’t even happen for real. Then I sit down on a bench, listen to music or to “whatever-the-place-I-am” sounds. I am waiting till the light and darkness mix up together- whether in my mind or in the outside world. And, at the end, the only thing you see, is darkness intersected with a lightning. But, damn- those echoes- that feels just splendid and sad in the same way.

Well, as you already know, there are bad days, but at the end, the effort to make your day better, whether it is your attempt or attempt of somebody else?

Two words- Worth it.

Just give it a try.

N.

 

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Why not?

Give it a try.

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Being happy nowadays is something pretty rare I would say.
There are plenty of people who feel upset with a plenty of issues as a package. Being constantly in bad mood, seeing the world just in black and white..I rather won’t continue because I have a feeling that I don’t have to. I don’t know how about you, but I decided not to be one of them.

 

Are you asking why?
 Just out of curiosity- what good brought sadness to your life?
 None.

 

I stopped leaving myself in a small room laying in bed not knowing what to do. I told myself- Why not give it a try? Okay, tbh  still not the best, still having this “new people anxiety” but I am working on it.
How about you? Have you ever tried to grab yourself and drag your soul outside to see the colours?

I am happy and grateful for those ordinary things that we, let’s say, take as a natural part of our lives.
You don’t even know how happy I am when I start to laugh and I totally burst out laughing, and the feeling? Something amazing. I am being happy when I discover a new song, finish reading some interesting book, or even when I wake up and finally feel at least a little bit relaxed and chilled.
I am glad to have a few friends, family and I am even happy for food and hot shower.
I am lucky to be able to see all those colours around me, around us. Because when the seasons are changing, we are kinda changing all with them. Turning around and around in circles year by year.
I am grateful that I am able to travel sometimes. To see the places that I’ve never been to, taking pictures, memorizing the perfect moment with that one person. I am grateful for him, for every single smile of his, for every single touch. Finally after that nasty period of time I feel …hmm I can’t even describe it, it’s something new. I need to explore that firstly.

There are always a lot of things that make life simple and easy and now, I am trying my best to think about them more than I used to think about the bad ones that happened or will happen to me. I am trying to convince myself that I don’t have to feel down. There are days when I feel like winning this race, but then I realize that the race just begun so I am saving you a seat here beside me.

So let’s race.

N.

P.s: It doesn’t mater it’s getting dark, you can still turn on the lights.